Mathake Hasarel Lyrics by Dushyanth Weeraman

More than I can ever say, I love you
More than I can bear, don’t let this sorrow grow
Why are you so cruel, like someone with no heart?
If only these sighs I let out could reach you
Come find me again and kiss these lips of mine

The memories rise up in the night
Tears came streaming from my eyes
The sweetness life once gave me is gone
Did you leave me and walk away?

Why did you become someone else’s? Why did you leave me?
My love is something I hold sacred, and you never knew it, my love
For as long as I live, this love of mine is for you alone
Deep in my heart, your face is drawn forever

You left, and not just in passing
I remember you every single moment
Sorrow alone became all I inherited
Forgive me, my princess

If you and I should meet again
I will give you my whole life
Drowned inside your every breath
I will die in your arms

A young man is talking to the woman who left him, and from the first line you can feel that he has given up trying to hold the grief in. He loves her more than he can put into words, and the pain of losing her is more than he can carry, so the whole song pours out as one long ache addressed straight to her. He calls her cruel, like someone with no heart, not out of anger but out of bewilderment that she could walk away when his love was this deep.

The song moves through that grief in waves. At night the memories come back and the tears start, and he wonders out loud whether she really did leave him for good. He keeps circling the same wound: why did she become someone else’s, why did she go. To him the love was never a small thing. He calls it sacred, something he held almost like worship, and the saddest part is his belief that she never even understood how much it meant to him. Her face, he says, is drawn into the deepest part of his heart for good, a way of saying he will never be able to forget her no matter how things ended.

The most telling word in the song is “kumaraneni,” which means “my princess.” Even now, even after she has gone and married someone else, he speaks to her with tenderness and respect, asking her to forgive him as though the parting were somehow his fault. That single word tells you everything about the kind of love this is, devoted and gentle, with no bitterness left in it.

By the end he isn’t asking for much from this life anymore, only one thing. If they ever meet again, he will give her his whole life, dissolve into her breath, and die in her arms. It is the wish of someone who has decided that even death beside her would be better than living apart, and that quiet, total surrender is what the song leaves you holding.