Hadaganna Me Hitha Lyrics by Centigradz

Take this heart of mine, smile and fool me
Will you just walk away, my love? Find a fault in me and tell me
That world of love you gave me once flooded through the door of my heart
The wind blows through the fire, leaving worry behind forever

In your arms, on your soft lips, kisses laid on a bed of comfort
My eyes won’t close, thinking only of you, will I ever find peace again? //

I loved you true my life and don’t wanna lose right man for you
Believe me, just like that, there’s thousands in my life and
Love is so blind and silly, time is near
Never gonna sit back and rolling back to get that forever

I remembered the days that you and I once had
The stars that had risen faded away, and I was lost in sorrow
There’s no one for me, my love, I ache in this saṃsāra (the cycle of rebirth)
The love that gave my life its peace, how strange it is now

Laa laa laala laalala laalaa laa laa laala laalala laa
Laa laa laala laalala laalaa laa laa laala laalala laa
There’s no one for me, my love, I ache in this saṃsāra
The love that gave my life its peace, how strange it is now
In your arms, on your soft lips, kisses laid on a bed of comfort
My eyes won’t close, thinking only of you, will I ever find peace again? //

A young man is hanging on to a love he can feel slipping away, and the whole song is him pleading with the girl not to let go. He even tells her to go ahead and pick out his faults if she has to, anything but leave. There is something painfully honest in that, the way someone in love will offer to take the blame just to keep the other person close.

He keeps reaching back to the good days. He remembers the love she once gave him, how it came pouring through the door of his heart like a flood. But now a different wind blows, the kind that moves through fire, and it leaves only worry settling in his chest. That image of wind passing through flame is how the lyric carries the feeling of a love turning to ash while he stands and watches.

The tenderest lines are the quiet ones. He thinks of being held in her arms, of soft lips and the kisses they shared on a bed of comfort, and now those same memories are exactly what keep him awake. His eyes will not close, his mind circles back to her, and he wonders out loud whether peace will ever come to him again. When he says he aches in this saṃsāra, the cycle of birth and rebirth in Buddhist thought, he is saying the hurt feels bigger than one lifetime, that loving her and losing her has marked his whole existence, not just these few weeks.

By the end he calls the love itself strange, the very thing that once gave his life its peace is now the thing that breaks him. That is where the song leaves you, with a young man holding on to memories that comfort and wound him in the same breath, asking the question anyone who has lost a first love knows by heart: will I ever feel calm again.